goodseemore's Blog

im so sleepy ...bug is sick and was up all last night ...i walked honey and got her ready for school but she couldn't go bacause sh'e still sick so i will let her stay home one more day ...

the heavy rain is making my daughter and i sick ....i think its all the pressure in the air ....

i looking for answers ...haven't found any yet ...but if i keep looking i will find what im looking for

im thinking of senting my daughter to camp for a few weeks just so i can have a break from caring for her ...i haven't had 24 hours off from her in four years  ...i just want time where i dont have to worry ...i worry all the time ..i can't stop myself ..i want to sent her to horse camp ...she loves horses and i could be free to see a doctor for help with my worring ...so this is what im doing this summer

each anf every time i ask bug to walk honey its a fight why can't she walk him ...and yea she will walk to the of the block...she beged for honey nut the only one who really cares for him is me ...i feed him and walk every day ...its making me crazy i shouldnt have to beg anyone ....but does she care No ....im sick to death over the way she acts...she HATES me ....whenever she home the house is trashed ...i hate it soo much

well here i am doing everything ....so still its not enough..bug is on me because she was late today ..still had to have homemade tuna fish for lunch ...shes making me crazy ..and honey forget it ..she will not walk him doesnt feed him ..doesnt seem to care about him ..but always has to sleep with him in her room i give up ....

my daughter Bug sleeps till 12 noon or later on weekends ....for whatever reason she will sleep almost the whole weekend away ...she used to skate on the weekends but now she only wants to sleep ...but it is true shes
still growing and that could be a part of it ...i dont know ...but i do know i miss us doing more things together ...maybe later on she will want to go do something fun ....

we spent yesterday buying Bug new shoes ..we went to six differnt shoe stores but in the end she was happy
so this we are trying something new ..i making lunches for her now and also doing her hair in braids ..she has long thick hair and so to keep it neat and clean i started braiding it for her ...so now it wont be in her face all the time ,,i walked honey and last night for work she came out and walked a little bit with me ...about 10 minutes and then went back into the house to get changed for bed ...

i have a cold and now so does bug ...hopefully honey wont get it .....i feel so out of it ..and my nose is killing me ..
i hate being stuffed up full of crap ...it's just to much to ask of me

it's been raining here for hours and i can't walk honey or my self in the rain ...im trying to walk everyday ..guess i could go on the treadmill and walk it i hate the machine ...maybe i'll get lucky and it will stop for a little while ...
i can still hear it ..so i guess i might not get my walking in today ...but theres always tomorrow ....the water here is bad i mean really bad ...this is the only place i have ever lived where you must clean the water everyday or else its a mess ...i thought the reason the water fliter in pitcher needed to be changed every 2 months or so ...not here 3 weeks and you need a new one ....

it started with honey barking ...so i got up ..and took out ..and when i came back ...Bug was sleeping in my bed ..
i tried to get her up but no dice so i tred to go back to sleep ...but honey again awake ....it was that way all night long ...and Bug slept in today till 12 45 this  afternoon i cooked and cleaned and she slept though it all ...and now im feeling sick i can't stop coughing ...thats what i get for walking herr puppy all night

ok well i have been a really good girl walked honey round the town for two hours yesterday ..but he seems happier ..and is doing better meeting new new people and dogs ...i think i'm getting sick ..i dont feel good and i head hurts ....just my luck for it to happen whem im off ...hopefully i ll be better by monday ...

well my daughter didn't walk Honey last night and boy did i hear about from Honey at 6am this morning ...i got up and walk him for about 45 minutes ..so i was going to go back to bed but i didn't feel like sleeping any more ...
this morning i got to hear about the fact that the project she had on the the pyaminds was wrong ..it was the Egyptian pyaminds that she was to write on so now she has to redo it ..and she's angry at me because i told her to make sure of what shes doing before she does it....

ok well i walked and feed the dog ...last night i made some really good chicken in my crockpot ...i put 4 big chicken legs with thighs in the pot and added BBQ sauce and water till it covered all the chicken ...then i just let it cook ..so last night Bug had to try it ..and she really loved it ...i cooked it till the meat fell off the bones and so i made pulled meat sandwiches for lunch today for her ...i need to work harder  at keeping house ...it's not dirty but it's not really clean ...so today i will spent my day cleaning up the house ...

working this morning ....got  early ..walked the dog ...feed the dog ..drove my kid to school ...she had to take her project in to class ...the project cost me $ 50 ...why you ask well here i will tell you ....her friend and classmate came over to our place towork on this project ...they had to build a peramid ..ok well ..i said use suger cubes ..well they used jolly rangers ...and it cost me a pretty penny for the candy alone ..now i dont really understand why classmate did not help pay for the supplies ...i brought them pizza for dinner and so they worked on it for a few hours and then i drove her friend home ..the next day i had to go and get them from school and bring they bring home so they could work on it somemore ...still i have had her daughter in my care twice and i have never seen her mom or stepdad yet .....

things i'm working on ..reading more books and self help articiles..waking up early ,,exericing more...walking the dog 6 or more times a day ...meditate,,,,learn to play chess ..start a 30 day challenege....to learn everything i can about opening my own business ...to stop eating fast food ..and stop drinking diet soda ..and biting on ice cubes ...work on home improvements ..like painting and learning how to lay tile

hi i'm lynne ...and i'm so new to this ...i love to write and have been looking for a way for my voice to heared ..i'm not a great writer...i write how and what i feel ..in hopes of others learning from my experiences ..i have lived in many places and have traveled to many many more.....life as i see it ...is hard ...but it's those one in lifetime moments that we all live for ...the greatest gifts i have ever gotten....my sweet husband ..my two sweet and loving kids ...and living each and everyday ..life is a gift ..and it can be taken away in a heartbeat ...